Fardawsa Yusuf

 بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ  " In the name of God, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful So what’s goooddd. Hope everyones enjoying their winter holidays. Just wanna vent all my frustrations here. Come join. Are you ready? I hate the fact that women are valued in this society by how much skin they show. What on earth. What has come to this world when the most treasured part of it becomes exploited. We’re dying if not already dead if these things are publicly accepted and accepted by the majority. And when did it become a crime that a woman chooses to hide her beauty and charms from the wolves and vultures of society? When did modesty become a crime. Like I’m just confused right now. And me, I gotta deal with it on a daily, if not from others of different faiths but even from the ones of the same faith. Okay let’s just take religion out of this for a second. When did it become someone else’s business what someone chooses to cover and uncover? You

Feelin good tonight Alhamdulillah. Whenever I’m feelin like this I just wanna write and write. So you can tell when I’m not writing it’s cuz I’m not feeling it. I have to be overflowing with emotions to write. Or inspired. This one is gonna be so random haha Man, I really love chocolate. The things I’d do for coffee and chocolate it’s actually scares me lol. I gotta get my fix in. Somehow. Yo. I got finals coming and I’m semi stressed for real. I’m always in a state of stress I noticed. Will there ever be relief? I realized yes. But this life is not a place for rest. It’s a temporary place of existence. Millions have come and gone. And we don’t remember the half of their names. They’re just forgotten. They lived. They enjoyed and then died never to be remembered again. And that’ll be us. Soon. I mean, we can use this is a positive way. Take from this life the best that we can. Make the best of what we have. Live a good life. A life that leaves a positive impact on the lives

So I got this invite to a bridal shower. But I don’t like parties to be honest. I really don’t. If I'm ever at one I'm probably gonna be in a corner talking to like one person lol. Distant from it all. I feel so uncomfortable in them settings. All the bright lights, noise, cameras lol. I love the food not gonna lie about that, and seeing friends I haven't seen in years. But other than that I just wanna go home. I think one of the reasons I'm single still is because I'm so bloody picky and unreasonable to deal with. For real. I'm a handful. Even for myself, I can’t imagine dragging somebody else down to come join me too. Future husband, I apologize in advance. But I guess since we’re on the subject I’ll tell you why it’s hard for me to find the right one. And what I would personally prefer. And maybe we can sneak some pet peeves in there. I can’t cook too well. So all these men who been catered to for years by their families are completely out of

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم Alhamdulillah I’m starting to like this weather we’re having. Edmonton weather is wack. First it’s all nice then it’s randomly cold out of nowhere. Almost slipped yesterday from the ice! Don't wanna lose more teeth aha. At one point in time I thought I wouldn’t make it this winter because of how cold it was lol. Was just preparing for my early death ha. But it’s better now. Imagine how people live on the streets in this weather Subhanallah. Thank God for heating. Thank God for homes. I found out this brilliant coffee that I’m in love with now. Man I'd walk in the cold for it. Peppermint coffee. I am dying. I don’t know what it is about mint but it has me feeling all types of ways. Had a thing for Aero mint chocolate for years. And remember the peppermint essential oils I was telling you about lol. The one that burned my face making it feel like it was on fire. I was on that for a bit till it ran out. Yo that stuff is expensive. For a small bottl

Been two weeks since I wrote a blog. Crazy weeks it's been. Haven't felt like myself tbh. Midterms and I just started working at this new place this month so everything is just piling on top of each other. I can't be too creative when I'm stressed aha. Where do I start? I'm taking a break from studying to write a quick blog.  How's everyone been doing? It's strange that I have people reading my stuff, and yet I never ask how ya'll are doin. I'm hoping well! Life get's stressful sometimes, but hey, you gotta hang in there. Good times are comin. Been having neck pain for weeks now. I have this strange way of sleeping at night i guess because it just won't leave!! I stretch it out and everything but the feeling is still there. I use to go for walks tons but it's snowy out in Edmonton now so I gotta get into winter mode. Staying cosy and warm and at home lol. My thoughts feel suffocated. Like a mental block. I've been eating way to

So I'm here. Drowning in memories. Days I miss but wouldn't want back. It's hard to explain. I put too much heart into things at times. I can give more than I have. It's strange, the lengths I'd go. I think that's one of my weaknesses. Loving too much.  Funny cuz you'd think that's a good thing but it's not. Moderation. I have to learn that lol. Life is so much more exciting when you have something to love, something to work towards, hope. The feeling you get when you plan to do something exciting but you can't remember what that thing was. The anticipation.  I love looking forward to things, even if it's something simple like getting a coffee, watching a movie with friends, going to bed early lol..makes days so much more tolerable. They say dreams are what make life more tolerable. I believe that to be true. Imagine a life without dreams..Dry ah. Insane. Good thing we got nights for that haha. I'm way too much in thought.  I wish

Honestly just gonna write whatever comes to mind. Hmm what should I write about. Coffee comes to mind. Maybe cuz I want one right now even tho is 11 pm. But I can’t otherwise how will I sleep tonight. Slept amazing last night. First time in a while. Man, was I glad I took my ma's advise. She told me to sleep. At 9 pm. And I did. Man that was a smart thing to do. I Kinda like being told what to do sometimes lol. I find it kinda hot when someone tells you what to do out of love and concern. Like dang. That’s a deal breaker for me. Haha. I think it’s the feeling of security that comes with it that makes it so attractive to me. Like someone actually cares you know? I get this warm protective feeling type thing haha. My mom’s telling me to sleep write now too as I’m writing so I’m gonna make this quick. Its strange, cuz Im the type that’s all protective and all. I mean i guess that’s how I show my affection, by being motherly. So i guess, when someone advises me, I interpret it

Been loving life Alhamdulillah. I feel like writing on this fine evening. But about what? What I enjoy, what cheeses me..? Okay. I just wanna get personal you know? I wanna share. :) I honestly get so excited when I come across someone that is similiar to me. The excitement is unreal. Like a drug. Just can't get enough. Like I’ll just wanna know everything about them. See what else we can relate in. I feel so misunderstood at times. It's a breath of fresh air to have someone that gets you. I find myself trying to take the persona of others often just to mesh in, to belong. And that means cutting a lot of myself away, it’s like trying to make a star shaped cookie into a circle shaped cookie. It loses it’s real self just to belong with the other circle shaped cookies. But i’m weird man. I can’t be blending in all the time, i just feel so not myself. I gotta unleash. And I wanna be my real self. And writing helps me unfold. I just feel so stuck sometimes. Like i just