Fardawsa Yusuf

Sometimes you gotta spend time with yourself alone at night. To see yourself clearly. Away from the distractions, all the things in our lives that cover up that insecure part of us. We hide a lot. A lot of things we don’t want others to know. It’s all a disguise what we show others during the day. Nothings hidden in those wee hours of the night. Ever notice how you can deep with someone at those hours. You’d share things you wouldn’t with others during the day. It's honest heartfelt speech. Just two hearts conversing. It’s all work during the day, no time to really just think, never mind feel. But why is it, in those late hours that everything you try to suppress comes to life? Those fears you have, the insecurities, all the anxieties and everything else? It can be suffocating. But relieving because no one else may be awake. So maybe you can finally let out those tears. Maybe you can finally call out your Lord and pray sincerely. But frightening, because you're alone...

Yo it's been too long. I do apologise. Things have been crazy this month whoa. Been emotionally drained too so I couldn't even squeeze a blog in there even if I wanted to lol. I don't even know where to start. How's everyone doing. Isn't this weather insane? In edmonton it's wild. You'll have a normal day with a low of -5 and then a week later you'll be in -20 weather that feels like -30. I'm telling you, you will freeze being out more than 5 minutes. It's insane. I mean it's not gonna stop me really but God, I wish it was warmer! Almaghrib seminars are happening this weekend I think. Crazy. I love them. Ever since they started in Edmonton in 2009 I been hooked! I'm always hyping them up lol. They deserve to be hyped! So if you haven't heard of it, Almagrhib is a global Islamic Institute that holds weekend seminars all over the world. There's probably one in your city. They teach Islamic studies, so there will a seminar on Fiq...

 بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ  " In the name of God, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful So what’s goooddd. Hope everyones enjoying their winter holidays. Just wanna vent all my frustrations here. Come join. Are you ready? I hate the fact that women are valued in this society by how much skin they show. What on earth. What has come to this world when the most treasured part of it becomes exploited. We’re dying if not already dead if these things are publicly accepted and accepted by the majority. And when did it become a crime that a woman chooses to hide her beauty and charms from the wolves and vultures of society? When did modesty become a crime. Like I’m just confused right now. And me, I gotta deal with it on a daily, if not from others of different faiths but even from the ones of the same faith. Okay let’s just take religion out of this for a second. When did it become someone else’s business what someone chooses to cover and uncover?...

Feelin good tonight Alhamdulillah. Whenever I’m feelin like this I just wanna write and write. So you can tell when I’m not writing it’s cuz I’m not feeling it. I have to be overflowing with emotions to write. Or inspired. This one is gonna be so random haha Man, I really love chocolate. The things I’d do for coffee and chocolate it’s actually scares me lol. I gotta get my fix in. Somehow. Yo. I got finals coming and I’m semi stressed for real. I’m always in a state of stress I noticed. Will there ever be relief? I realized yes. But this life is not a place for rest. It’s a temporary place of existence. Millions have come and gone. And we don’t remember the half of their names. They’re just forgotten. They lived. They enjoyed and then died never to be remembered again. And that’ll be us. Soon. I mean, we can use this is a positive way. Take from this life the best that we can. Make the best of what we have. Live a good life. A life that leaves a positive impact on the lives...

So I got this invite to a bridal shower. But I don’t like parties to be honest. I really don’t. If I'm ever at one I'm probably gonna be in a corner talking to like one person lol. Distant from it all. I feel so uncomfortable in them settings. All the bright lights, noise, cameras lol. I love the food not gonna lie about that, and seeing friends I haven't seen in years. But other than that I just wanna go home. I think one of the reasons I'm single still is because I'm so bloody picky and unreasonable to deal with. For real. I'm a handful. Even for myself, I can’t imagine dragging somebody else down to come join me too. Future husband, I apologize in advance. But I guess since we’re on the subject I’ll tell you why it’s hard for me to find the right one. And what I would personally prefer. And maybe we can sneak some pet peeves in there. I can’t cook too well. So all these men who been catered to for years by their families are completely out of ...