Fardawsa Yusuf

Honestly just gonna write whatever comes to mind. Hmm what should I write about. Coffee comes to mind. Maybe cuz I want one right now even tho is 11 pm. But I can’t otherwise how will I sleep tonight. Slept amazing last night. First time in a while. Man, was I glad I took my ma's advise. She told me to sleep. At 9 pm. And I did. Man that was a smart thing to do. I Kinda like being told what to do sometimes lol. I find it kinda hot when someone tells you what to do out of love and concern. Like dang. That’s a deal breaker for me. Haha. I think it’s the feeling of security that comes with it that makes it so attractive to me. Like someone actually cares you know? I get this warm protective feeling type thing haha. My mom’s telling me to sleep write now too as I’m writing so I’m gonna make this quick. Its strange, cuz Im the type that’s all protective and all. I mean i guess that’s how I show my affection, by being motherly. So i guess, when someone advises me, I interpret it...

Been loving life Alhamdulillah. I feel like writing on this fine evening. But about what? What I enjoy, what cheeses me..? Okay. I just wanna get personal you know? I wanna share. :) I honestly get so excited when I come across someone that is similiar to me. The excitement is unreal. Like a drug. Just can't get enough. Like I’ll just wanna know everything about them. See what else we can relate in. I feel so misunderstood at times. It's a breath of fresh air to have someone that gets you. I find myself trying to take the persona of others often just to mesh in, to belong. And that means cutting a lot of myself away, it’s like trying to make a star shaped cookie into a circle shaped cookie. It loses it’s real self just to belong with the other circle shaped cookies. But i’m weird man. I can’t be blending in all the time, i just feel so not myself. I gotta unleash. And I wanna be my real self. And writing helps me unfold. I just feel so stuck sometimes. Like i just ...

 بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ . Thoughts of a Lady My two loves: Soul-mates & Dreams "It was like-souls she attracted and loved. Souls and hearts that were just like hers. With whomever she loved deeply it was because she felt a familiarity, a connection. Something she couldn't grasp but was aware of. A bond was there. And she strongly believed in the concept of soul mates. She could testify to it. Soul mates, the people she once knew in the  prior realm of existence. Those who were with her, in the same  ranking. It was these individuals, that if she met in this life, a closeness and an  unbreakable bond   would be formed. It's these people one would gravitate towards, naturally. Even in a packed room, one could gaze around and feel a particularly strong of feeling of love for those select few individuals. These are the ones you'd  fall in love with easily, just from the way they spoke, or from how they...

It's amazing what love can do for a person’s well being and growth. It's like a fundamental thing for healthy functioning relationships. Even as children, we wouldn't have grown up to be healthy individuals if it wasn't for the love and nurturing we had when we were younger from our parents. I don't think anything's different now when we get older. We still need  to feel loved in our everyday lives. Those small things. Knowing that someone cares for us, that were still remembered, that we are thought well of, that we're respected and appreciated. Normally we don't express these needs when we get older because it can be awkward. It's awkward to tell someone that we're upset because they didn't think of us, or remember us. Especially because it's something we want so badly. They say emotional vulnerability is what makes relationships thrive. But the problem is that most of us do not want to become to expressive of our thoughts, feeli...

بِسْمِ اللَّهِ الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيم In Paradise, a person will see what no eye has seen, hear what no ear has heard and enjoy what they could have never imagined. This is the real home, the lasting home, the real life. A reward Allah has saved for those who believed in him and did righteous deeds. Allah promises us that,     فَلَا تَعْلَمُ نَفْسٌ مَا أُخْفِيَ لَهُمْ مِنْ قُرَّةِ أَعْيُنٍ جَزَاءً بِمَا كَانُوا يَعْمَلُونَ   "No person knows what is kept hidden for them of joy as reward for they used to do." A person will be granted whatever they wish. They will only desire it and it will be theirs. They will be housed in mansions with their loved ones under which rivers flow.  He/she will have eternally youthful servants serving whatever they wish to eat and drink, they will be surrounded by them. Because of their vast number, their brightly coloured garments, their bright faces, you would think they were all like scattered pearls movin...